Savoring the Supremacy of God in All of Life.

The amazing things about trials and tribulations are their ability to bring you back to God, to be swept up by His ever-present grace and love, and to allow His Glory and Sovereignty to be displayed.

My boss came back from his 2 month long course, and was appalled to find the company in a worst position then when he had left it. As I was the only officer at work for the past few days, much of his questioning and display of anger fell upon me. As the only officer around, I felt very bad, and disappointed at myself. Sure, I was not at blame, and neither did my boss blamed me, but it sure felt that way. The weight of the company was on my shoulders, and I couldn’t carry it, worse still, I had failed it. After a few days of shelling from my boss, coupled by the long hours trying to catch up with work in the officer, I finally broke down during a questioning session where both my boss and 2IC were present. I felt so bad, and could not say a word without starting to tear again.

I give thanks to God for His supremacy of all things in life, that during my darkness moments He picked me up and cradled me in His arms. He reminded me of my frailty and humanity, and that no matter how much I do, without Him I would fail.

Now, the stress is still there, and the work never seems to finish, but I leave my bunk with the assurance that no matter what the day may be, my day will glorify Him because He is with me.

I’ve about 12 weeks more before I ORD, and these 3 months can make or break my NS experience. I intend for it to be meaningful and memorable, that in these last few months, people will ask what’s about this officer that makes him different, and how does he does he do it? When that happens, I’ll point towards the cross.