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He stared at me. I stared back at him.

His brows were furrowed, and there was a fierce intense look on his face, the look that George Cloony had when he stared at goats, the look that said "I know something that you don't, and I can hurt you with it". The lips of the boy was pursed tightly together, and I imagined that he would have clench his teeth together save for the fact that he had only 2 on his lower jaw. He reached out his right arm towards me, but the distance was too great and he could not reach me. He held back the other hand, maybe he had something up his sleeve, if only he could reach them.

I focus my thoughts. The only way to defeat the enemy was to know the enemy, and to know the enemy, I had to be the enemy. I tried to visualize being the enemy, but all that came to mine were nonsensical thoughts that didn't make sense. All I could here was "Goo Gaa, it's past my bedtime and I'm cranky!" Then I tried distracting him, thinking that in doing so, he might lose his concentration and I might have a chance in defeating him. I shaped my lips into a funnel and make kissing noises. I made my eyes roll around in all directions. I tried everything I could, but unfortunately, nothing could divert his attention.

Sigh... My attempts were futile, and there was no way I was going to stop my nephew from crying. Fed him his milk, put him to sleep, but he had a crying fit latter at night. Thank goodness Mark came home. babysitting. haha.

providence

Recently, I've been a little worried about my financial status cause I'm not earning much and I didn't save much during money army either. I considered tuition cause it'll be a good source of income now, and also during uni. And I'll be needing cash for this and for that, and for overseas trips and exchanges and so many things. Moreover, a bike's gonna cost at least 3k which I want to save up for.

Then one day, while I was praying, I felt God impress upon me that I couldn't give tuition cause it'll take up my time, time which should be used serving Him. Then I asked Him about my finances, and He said don't worry, He'll provide. So okie, if You say so, I shall not worry.

Looking back at the past few weeks, I've really seen God's providence in my life. Most of the meals that I've had at nice places have been paid by people. Let's just list them out to show how blessed I've been and how God's been Glorified. Tue: Fong paid for sushi dinner. Ps Ivan paid for lunch at some french place at Funan. Sat: Hefty ang bao from being the chauffeur at my uncle's wedding. Thu: Dad paid for lunch at Eatzi. Wed: Free fried laksa at Kenneth's house during GoogleGod Fellowship. Tue: Ps Alvin paid for YM Staff lunch. Mon: Ee made dinner. Fri: Sam paid for Thai dinner. Awesomeness!

Thank You God for providing for my finances, I've got a few more overseas trips as well as 3 months of no income as a full-time student, but You've provided for me so far, and I know that You'll continue to provide for me. Thank You.

p.s. can you get me a bike pls? doesn't have to be expensive, just need it to get me some riding experience. :)